One of my most pivotal moments of 2014 was on June 2010, just before 1 pm. I was sprawled in the middle of the street in Toronto, scraped up, bike by my side, arm broken.
I did some life experiments in 2014 – in optimism and vulnerability – but this was an uninvited experiment in acceptance. Could I take my broken arm for granted and go from there? Or would I repeatedly replay the scene and curse the streetcar tracks that brought my bike to the ground?
Well, let’s just say my 2015 New Year’s resolution is “practice acceptance” for a reason.
The more I thought about acceptance during my month of invalidity, the more it seemed key to happiness. The more I think about it now, the more connections I see between non-acceptance and many of my challenges in life.
Accept the self – increase confidence
I am who I am.
I am what I am.
I am where I am.
I did what I did.
I can do what I can do.
I like what I like.
I feel what I feel.
One of the bits of self-insight I gained in 2014 was how much of a workaholic I am. Every minute must be productive; trips to the grocery store feel like a waste of time; sleeping to heal your broken arm is overrated (boy, was I wrong about that).
At the very root of it, if I dig down all the way and sift through things, I believe I feel this way because of a lack of self-confidence. Who I am today isn’t enough. I haven’t achieved what I see as my potential. I have to always be moving toward the person I want to be. In essence, I’m not accepting who I am today.
Accept circumstances – reduce worry and grumpiness
It is what it is.
It was what it was.
It will be what it will be.
It takes as long as it takes.
It certainly does take as long as it takes – almost 7 months later, my once-broken arm still needs stretching to recover full mobility. I’m okay with that, but the hassles of life still grate on my mood more than they should. Too-hot weather, long lines, slow Internet, and unfulfilled expectations bring me down. And worrying about the future – my career, my health, and whether my favorite Survivor contestant will win – is just another form of non-acceptance. Que sera sera.
Accept others – improve relationships
He is who he is.
She is who she is.
They are who they are.
I’ve always been someone with a strong sense of morality and justice, which is another way of saying I have lots of ideas about how things should be done. When people do things “wrong,” I itch to tell them (or someone else). But I want to learn to be more understanding and empathic, particularly for the people I care about. I want to love them as they are, because they are wonderful.
As I’ve said before, I don’t think this advice is for everyone. Some people need a bit more righteous indignation and dissatisfaction to get things going; for them, their acceptance may have reached the level of passivity. But not for me. My pendulum has swung in the other direction, and what I need is a hefty dose of acceptance to balance out my tendencies to resist, regret, and judge.
In some meditations, you learn to label your thoughts as “thinking” or “feeling,” which is supposed to create some distance from them. If you can be a third-party observer to what’s going on in your head, you don’t get so caught up in it. I’m hoping the same thing works for acceptance. My resolution is to be aware of the times when I’m not accepting, and soothe myself with the balm of the trivially-true-but-so-profound statements above. Is this awareness and reframing enough to make a difference to the way I feel? I’m not sure yet, but it will be a great experiment.
I love your reflection here. Acceptance is so important. One day you will understand that being “still” is important too… be it for healing a broken arm, or perhaps a broken heart… for taking in nature, and for giving your soul time to grow. You are at an age where you can go, go, go – as I see you & Fred going everywhere!! (If it’s Tuesday it must be France…) One day they will be awesome memories as you sit still together and let each day of life “be”. That’s a pretty great feeling too.
It could be helpful to measure your happiness not just in terms of work-related productivity, but instead of how you are using your time to cover the four important areas of happiness: love, health, work, money. If you spend 2 hours with a friend, you’re covering the love portion. If you go grocery shopping, you’ve covering the health portion. If you sleep to help your broken arm recover, you’re covering the health portion again. Just remember to think about all aspects of happiness at all times. It might help.